Thursday, October 20, 2005

When Blogging is not Enough

I have been blogging for a month or more, and I just read the most disturbing blog. I sometimes wonder why people blog. When you think about it, we spend a few minutes per day to write the blog; maybe even half-an-hour if it is long, or we have a touch of a writer's block (me for the last two days).

I just don't feel like being witty, sexy or humorous. But I have been poking around some other friend's blogs, and I have seen two blogs today that were very disturbing. One blog poster seemed suicidal and another one seemed clinically depressed. I am in a sort of funk, and I don't know why, but my heart bleeds for these two digital friends.

Sometimes I wonder if I should blog at all. And then I get some wonderful comment that makes me hold myself up higher, and I am hooked again. Not today, but probably some day soon. Some of us may use our blogs for counseling purposes – not what I am doing at all. I want to impart my experiences and what I have learned on others. Because I really don't want others to follow some of my paths. Everyone has the right to screw up, but it may be a more painful way of traveling through life. If I tell you the stove is hot, perhaps you won't burn your fingers like I did.

But right now I just hope my digital friends are okay.

12 comments:

halo said...

Your sweet Leesa, I hope they are too. Sometimes ya just feel helpless dont ya? Sucks!!

Samantha said...

That's the problem with digital friends...you can't be there in person to just give them a hug. Definitely sucks.

I would LOVE to know more about you. You really intrigue me. Maybe start telling some stories about your life. Anything that sticks out. If you aren't a fan already, maybe try visiting http://busywithnothing.blogspot.com/

to gain some more insight. She seems to have your same sense of self. Maybe to a different degree.

I'd love to learn from your life lessons! :-)

ken said...

it is the "responsibility" of creating cyber friends.....there is an attachment to some that transcends the anonymity we usually enjoy in sharing our thoughts and perceptions....
i appreciate the friends i have sparked with through blogging.....yet have had to close the door on some ,whether through lack of mutual respect, or of expectmore than i choose to give....same in daily life.....however we do have the opportunity here to speak a bit more openly, to not respond if we choose....and continue our safe distance.....

do continue to write and post leesa, you are a genuine writer, entertaining and insightful. i smile often reading you....for me, time is the crux..not enough to share all i want..and with fall here, outside, nature beckons me come and enjoy!

you are the coolest! more please! when inspired, or simply venting......

sjblogger said...

And that is the paradox that is the blogger community. Finding those who are in trouble, or troubled and not being able to offer any more than sound advice, even when a hug and true caring would do so well.

And on the flip side you find so many people you connect with, or identify with, people you have in common, but realize that true friendship can never blossom over the digital world.

I too enjoy your writing and I also identify with you, having similar experiences in life, or at least in the little bit of life we know of you.

Anyway, I too enjoy your writing, I find it moving, entertaining and sometimes humorous and poignant wrapped into one box.

Keep it up and I'll keep reading - for what it's worth!

Long Iron said...

When you begin to touch your heart or let your heart be touched, you begin to discover that it's bottomless, that it doesn't have any resolution, that this heart is huge, vast, and limitless. You begin to discover how much warmth and gentleness is there, as well as how much space. ~Pema Chodron~

I'm sure your friends will be comforted to know that you shared their pain today. Maybe, unknowingly, you took some of it away from them.

I think your a good writer, who appears to not take herself too seriously. Yet serious enough to have doubts. Keep writing, that would be my advice.

Justice said...

I know how you feel. Sometimes I feel like blogging has become too much work, but then there are the other times when I see it as an outlet for thoughts that are bottled up in my head.

kathi said...

I missed your blog the last couple of days, working...but I've just gotta say, I'd miss you so very much.

Shirazi said...

Blogging is never enough. It is only the people behind blogs that can fill in the void. No?

Leesa said...

muse: guess I got my muse back this morning. I wrote about dick!

samantha: gave the person a digital hug this am

ken: I wonder if some of us are different is cyberspace. I am less guarded

sjblogger: I read the following this morning - "It is only with the heart that one can see rightly; what is essential is invisible to the eye."

long iron: thanks. I like you.

justice: sometimes I want to cut back. Wonder if it would help.

kathi: you are so sweet.

shirazi: it is the journey and not the destination that is important.

Ddot the King said...

Well I hope that your friends are ok. I'm sure that any kind word that you give them will help. *Wink*

ken said...

i think you are right leesa....the wonders of cyberspace allow us to peruse interests we might not otherwise in physical life...we are curious people, many simply nosy and invasive. i see many flirting and teasing, the sensual realm is high traffic, when they would NEVER be so forward or uninhibited in their daily encounters....i do enjoy your friends and their comments here....what a wonderful addition to the day! long iron....powerful message!

thanks for another smile leesa!

Brea said...

I am the same way - I get worried for my blogger buddies when they are in a funk.