I watched a 21-second video the other day from one of my favorite vloggers, IveGotaTheory. Hint: I was subscriber 15, and they have 40 now – join before the wave to say, "I was there when they were doing videos for each other."
Anyway, they have this twenty-one second video that asks the question, "What if you had the power to re-do any moment of your life. Would you do it?" It reminds me of the line in City Slickers where Mitch says, "Your life is a do-over." Okay, I looked for the exact quote and could not find it, but it seems to me that many thirty- and forty-something young adults wonder if they are where they are supposed to be. Is this all life has to offer?
Again, from City Slickers:
Mitch Robbins: Have you ever had that feeling that this is the best I'm ever gonna do, this is the best I'm ever gonna feel... and it ain't that great?
Station Manager: Happy Birthday.
When I saw that clip (the YouTube clip, not the City Slickers clip), especially when the clip suggested a moment and not a series of events, was there an event that I would like to do over? Immediately, I would have said the first time I cheated. That was a huge deal for me (cheating the first time), and the second time was much easier, the third time was even easier. It was the first time that I had to have some sort of inertia to "get over the hump" and, oddly enough, start humping. Without having whatever it took to cross the line into infidelity, would I have cheated later? Probably, if things did not change. But I would have liked to take my chances.
Okay, part of me, probably would have chosen a related event instead of the infidelity, that is, telling my doting husband. The look in his face – not just his eyes, was so painful for me to watch. I crushed him with my infidelity, and we are still healing years later. I have tried to sway people from cheating to having a good monogamous relationship. Because for me, it has made all the difference.
But, from all of this thinking, most things I have done that have turned out poorly I would not change. I don't look at my life and wonder what would have happened if I had done this or that differently, because, well, I can't redo this or that. And as time goes by, I am much less impulsive than I was when I was younger. So there is less for me to want to do over. Now that I look at what I have wrote, just watch the video. It is awesome. Perhaps I should have written this again as my do-over.
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