Wednesday, November 30, 2005

Wunder Lust

You know, looking back on my posts from the last few days, and it occurs to me. I have not had sex in several days, and it shows in my writings. Now I know what they mean by a bitch in heat.

Several years ago, I had an "administrative job" at a non-profit organization. If you are clever, you probably know the business, and I no longer work there (from the looks of things, hardly anyone who once worked there is there now). But you have to know Savannah.

Anyway, the job was sort of menial. It really was. The pay was not great, but I would have to really bust my ass for another $2 to $4 thousand per year, and being the astute person that I am, I thought to myself, "I can either sit on my ass, fuck around (and I do mean fuck – I got paid a salary for sneaking off and fucking) and not get fired, or I could find a job where I would make $2 to $4 thousand more, work my ass off, and they would expect results." I learned about these decision trees in college, but it was a no-brainer for me. Stay in this entry job and have a good time. Hey, I was a giving girl, and I mean giving (wink).

So, every year our non-profit would get audited (not a bad thing, just how things were), and the first year I was there, I was called on to "babysit" the auditor. We were between accountants (I think the title was CFO, but he was an accountant because the pay was measly all around). So my job was to help out the auditor.

The instruction (singular, not plural) I was given is, "If you don't know the answer, don't guess, just say you don't know, and suggest that she ask the president." Since I knew next to nothing (recall, I was screwing in the back room?), I knew I was going to say that a lot.

And then I met the auditor. She was about the same age I was, very attractive, and very nerdy. I am not really all that turned on by women, but every once in a while, I get some sort of girl crush. This was one of those times.

I remember watching her set up her pencils, pens and paper. Everything was so neat, and it appeared that she needed things in the order she placed them. I am OCD, but she was like the ultimate OCD person in Savannah, perhaps the state of Georgia. And she was so nerdy that she had no idea how beautiful she was.

I would watch her as she licked her thumb before inspecting mountains of papers. I watched as she fidgeted with her laptop. She changed the background, changed where the icons were place, tucked loose hair behind her ear, lightly bit her lip and continued to fiddle with the laptop. A new laptop with someone who has a major case of OCD is less than a blessing.

We spent two weeks together, me sneaking glances of this auditor, me not making my move. Not that I was afraid of losing my job – I had already compromised that with no ill effects.

I don't get girl crushes much, but I did those two weeks. Next audit season we had our accountant nerd and I was jealous of him getting to spend his time with her. Here I was married, getting mounted by every Tom, Dick and Harry, and jealous of a co-workers time with a nerdy goddess.

I am married, have only had a few brief lesbian encounters, and I have come to the conclusion that although I really like sucking dick, there is a small part of me that every once in a while is stirred by an occasional and unforgettable woman. Does that make me a lesbian? Probably not, probably. I don't know, and it really does not matter. All I can tell you is that she stirred something inside me, something that is normally quiet and calm. Oh, and that made my week, my month, my lifetime.

27 comments:

Sassy said...

I don't think it makes you a lesbian at all...I myself am sometimes drawn, physically, to another woman. There's nothing wrong with being attracted to an attractive person, male OR female...

I have to admit though, I was kinda hoping for some hot girl-on-girl action in this post. ;)

Serial_Dater said...

Whoa. I was looking to read about some hot girl on girl action too. ;o)

I'm new to your blog, but me likes. I likes fa' sho.

You'll see me around more often. Holla'

steph said...

Nice blog!

I see on your profile you have the movie 9 1/2 Weeks listed...I forgot how much I loved that flick.

I think Mickey Rourke is HOT in it. Kim is too :)

Joe said...

I've yet to meet a woman who hasn't been attracted at some point to another woman. Does that make you a lesbian? Hardly...

Great story, though (as usual)....

Leesa said...

Yeah, I know. Girl-on-girl action would have been nice. But I was whoring around with all of these men, and I probably did not have the confidence to approach her.

Rell said...

na that doeesn't make you a lesbian in my opinion.

Now if you went and ravaged her -- then you'd probably be a lesbian. :-)

sjblogger said...

Now I don't think that makes you a lesbian at all, but more a woman comfortable in her sexuality...

However I did have a friend who used to always say, "Just because I make out with girls doesn't make me a lesbian!" But the fact that she ONLY made out with girls DID.

So yes, you are clearly not a lesbian...

Ddot the King said...

I don't really know if it makes you a lesbian or not. In fact I don't even care afte rhte line "although I really like sucking dick..."

If I'm ever in Savannah....well let's just say your blog will be extra interesting for months afterwards.....:)

Storm said...

No, I don't think that makes you a lesbian at all.

I guess we all have people that we hold fondly in our memories.

~Deb said...

I believe that every person has a 'bi-sexual' button. You can have a non-sexual crush on someone--and that's perfectly normal.

Sometimes it is sexual---and "that's okay".

This does not mean that you are a lesbian. A lesbian is someone who is true blue--only women.

It's nice to see someone comfortable and confident in her sexuality, yet knows that there are options out there that are available for experiencing.

Nice post!

Georgiapeach said...

I could very well be a lesbian..lol. Really. Naw, I am not going to get into all of this. Everytime I come over here, I end up revealing things that are better left alone.
Ahh fuck it! Here it goes. I had my first lesbian experience a few weeks ago..OMGosh I haven't told anybody this. I was at this club. My boyfriend and I do crazy shit..long story. Anyway, with my lifestyle, you should know what kind of club it was. Anyway, so the girl starts touching me or whatever, she ain't even trying to get with my boyfriend. So I let her and we start fooling around and whatever. But then something happens. She wants me to go there with her... Girl, I just stopped. First, it was far too dark for all that. Ain't no telling what was going on with her down there. Second, your juices in my mouth. Ahh, I am gagging just the thought (no offense to anyone). But anyway, the other stuff was okay. I don't think that I would be comfortable on the receiving end either. Well, now that I think about it... It would be all to the good..lol. I would think that you would have to be perfect down there. You can get over on a guy easily. But another woman. Can't fool her for nothing.

Georgiapeach said...

Yeah, its a bottom line to this. That experience helped me become WAYYY more secure and confident with my sexuality. Now I think I am the sexiest woman alive. Not really. But you get what I am trying to say.

Boris Yeltsin said...

great writing!!!! You should write a book. Maybe have one or two girl-on-girl episodes.

Leesa said...

Deb: I love that confidence comes with age. Not sure if I just don't care what others think anymore. Okay, I do care.

GP: You are such a breath of fresh air. I want to be 22 again!

boris: I have limited girl-on-girl experiences. I would need someone to practice on.

Georgiapeach said...

hehehe. Girl, you should have seen me! I didn't know what to do!! I would be a horrible male lover. I was shocked and embarrassed. I see why men say pleasing a woman is hard. It really got technical..lol.

kathi said...

As interesting as you are leesa, gotta say, it's gp that got me cracking up here. GP, you are a HOOT! Love both of ya. This was kinda like a two for one, got both of you on one blog. Good deal!
Oh, and for the record, hated all my girl on girl experiences. Only kept doing it cause I liked being with the girls hubby. Apparently he liked it too much and they split up. Then...neither one looked good to me anymore. I was such a bitch back then.

Nova said...

Good post. Nah, that doesn't make you a lesbian. Especially if you didn't even pursue the girl.

:phil: said...

I think it makes you a well rounded individual. There has to be an advantage to knowing the equipment.

~Deb said...

Okay, wait wait wait wait wait just a minute here!!!!!!!!!

*eh-hem*

*cough*

As a lesbo over here yonder....yeah I said yonder---shush! I feel---that EVEN for a straight gal, a lady .... eh-hem ...."a lady", should keep herself nice, even if it is for a man. (haha!) Sorry fellas.

Seriously though, even for myself, I want to be 'perfect' down there, because not only does my partner venture south of the borders, but I do as well. It's so important to not only have good hygiene, but to be looking the part of a sweet pretty 'southerner'... feelin' me?

Okay, don't feel me GP... But I will say this:

BLECHHHHHH on the male juices!

Sorry guys! Once again, it's just as if someone would ask you----would you ever be with a man? And you would say, "HELL NO!" So men---we definitely have something in common... right? Love men. But... you know.... ah hell, I gotta shut up and go to sleep.

Sorry.

{{hugs for my straight gals}}

P.S. If you decide to jump over the fence, I'll be here waiting. Hmm...don't tell my wifey that. Ugh. What a thorn in my side!

I think I'm having the relationshits.

Barney said...

MMMMMH?....I like women too, does that make me a lesbian also? *scratches head* ;-)

Rell said...

GP you are the sexiest alive ;-) lol...

Goddess said...

Administrative jobs rock!

Chris said...

Why have there never been women like you where I work? I've only ever had one woman "come onto me" at work. Her desk was across the room facing mine. She would sit on her desk, wearing the shortest of skirts and talk to me. She knew I could see everything she had, and I think she liked it. It never went further than that, though.

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