Sunday, April 26, 2009


I am in the midst of a bout of depression. It is not as if anyone died, or I moved, or I had to do any public speaking (I read somewhere that moving or public speaking is nearly as stressful as having a relative die. I don't know how that can be – unless they averaged some stress tests, and some people were thrilled with dead in-laws and such. Oh, I can't carry a thought in a bucket tonight.)

I had a run-in with a neighbor this week. It is not as if we are close (or want to be close, for that matter). Because I have been depressed, this little run-in seems much more important than it really is. I have not been to the gym in a week or two, so I think I may do that to see if it helps.

I have been trying really hard to post every day that I am at work – but Monday may be an exception. Unless of course, I call into work with swine flu-like symptoms. I really think it would suck to catch the swine flu. I mean, having the flu that could kill you would suck, of course, but also having to tell people you have a disease named after a pig. That has got to be embarrassing.

Well, I am doing my part by washing my hands 200 times per day. I think I need more lotion.


Xmichra said...

Sorry to hear you are having to deal with this... Breaking out of depression once it creeps in is difficlut, especially when someone aggrivates it even more.

try and go to the gym, it just might boost some happy endorphins for you :)

.... I must be in need of a little therapy myself, all i thought from your last sentance was *It puts the lotion on its skin, or it gets the hose again!*.. (silence of the lambs)

Karen said...

I am comfortable speaking publicly that it is crazy. I get stressed when I don't get my "time in the spotlight". I think it has to do with being a lawyer and having to speak for a living.

Sorry about your neighbor. I get those random bouts of depression from time to time also. Do you need a hug?

Girl Next Door said...

I hope you feel better soon.

Jules said...

That stinks - the neighbor bit and the depression. Hang in there. Try to do things that you love.

Leesa said...

Xmichra: I will be pursing the endorphins today.

Karen: Thanks for the offer of a hug. Still feeling smallish.

GND: Thanks, sweetie.

Jules: Thanks for the encouragement.

Submit PR said...

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Grant said...

Instead of calling it the Swine Flu, couldn't you just say that you've been porked? Or just tell them you have my current affliction, the Flaming Sharts™. That would be much less embarrassing.

AcuityTodos said...

Sorry you are in the depths. I know all too well what that is like, and how hard it is to climb out. I had thought your writings had a different quality for the last few weeks.

It will pass...even though it might not feel like it now

Ian Lidster said...

Depression for me is always random, rarely with a known cause. I kind of accept it as part of who I am. Anyway, hang in there and a big hug for you, lovely friend.

Leesa said...

Submit PR: I can't believe this - I got spam from a depression post.

Grant: Funny, Grant, funny.

Acuity: Thanks, sweetie.

Ian: Thanks, sweetie. Random, that's the way I would describe it.